December 24th
Last night I finally came to the conclusion to re open my website. For those of you who know me realize just how much of a dilemma this decision has been for me. After being hurt, emotionally from a few friends, I realized that I had hidden myself away from the world to all but a select few. It took the loss of a good friend and the painfull departure of another that gave me the will to free myself from my small little world. Re opening my website after 3 years will undoubtedly create some personal problems, I only hope that I can deal with the problems with great respect for all parties involved. Merry Christmas to all especially my Donna...
December 26th
My house is a serious mess!! While I pray every day and give thanks for the things we have I feel somewhat guilty about the kids getting so many things. This is the second year I will make them donate one of their toys to a mission for children less fortunate. I hope everyone spent the holidays with someone they love. Happy Holidays to all, love Elizabeth and family...
December 28th
My house is back to normal! well as normal as it can get. The boys helped me remove the 9ft tall and 5ft wide Christmas tree from the den - by far the largest tree I have ever purchased. It took an old military blanket and some line to reduce its size for the door. A 5 ft problem to a 3 ft solution. My little girl and I took down the garland and lights from the house - inside and out. With all of the Christmas items removed I can finally see just how much room there is (the rooms look empty).
Job - I have been waiting for 2 call backs for "second" interviews, one with *** and one with the City. The city called me back and set up an appointment during the proposed training time for ***, but I will keep the appointment just in case the *** job offer falls through. The market has not been kind to me as my value (salary wise) seems to have dropped to a third of my usual salary - this bites but it is life. Not much use for a person who knows how to manipulate business deals for the gambling industry (here in this state).
January 12th
I can say my body actually feels like someone ran over me with a truck! This week has proved very stressful. I was hired by the unnamed company *** this week. At first I thought, oh what a wonderful opportunity for me and my family, but truth be know it is only about the company. On my first day I was told sick days are not allowed, not once but about 10 times (i kid you not). Even if someone arrives late, excused or not, it could lead to termination. We were told stories about people who's family were in icu and the employee could not leave or face termination; a man's wife was in labor and he was afraid to leave because he might be terminated. My kids have been sick with Streph throat so I asked two questions: 1 if no one is there to take care of them can i take some time off to take them to the doctor. The answer was no, you need to have someone else do that as you are paid to be here when we tell you! 2 If I become sick with streph, note it is highly contagious, should i come in? the answer was yes and we don't care if you spread it to others just be here. You can only go to the bathroom every two hours otherwise you can be terminated. While the money seems to be there, there is a serious lack of flex ability, excused or not. I have talked with many employees and when asked if they like their job the response is simply I like the money! Not really what I would call a employee friendly place.
Feb. 7th
Family house fire
Today a historical building belonging to my family went up in flames... There is no proper way to say good bye to such a beautiful place. If the walls could talk they would tell tales from the early 1800's and the people who lived within. I knew many things about the house unknown to the general public its secret passage ways behind walls, the dungeon, the inscriptions left by others in her walls, the spirits that played tricks people, pictures of old slaves that worked on the plantation, and whole closets set on hinges to reveal hidden places. For me and many others The Oaks Plantation will be missed....... Thank you to everyone who called or emailed me their regrets. www.wciv.com/news/stories/0208/494119_video.html
Feb. 12th
Thief, Thief, Thief
There is a thief amongst the crew.... I think it is amazing who steals and what they steal. My thoughts, I hope and pray that the person who stole the item realizes what they have done and kindly returns it without incident. I am a good church going person who realizes stealing is a sin and my conscience simply would never allow me to entertain the thoughts of thievery. How can someone just take from others and feel ok about themselves??? I am afraid that if the item is not returned it will become a legal issue with lawyers, courts, and someone going to jail.
Feb. 20th
A Broken Heart
Are there so many times a heart can be broken? If a cat has 9 lives, can we only have so many heart breaks before it can not be fixed? I fall in love too easy it would seem. My heart has been broken by too many people over the past year. When will it stop? How can I protect myself from the many who will eventually break my heart? I placed my trust in God this time and I think he taught me a lesson, actually this is the second lesson. It feel like someone has dug my soul totally out of my body and left a big hole. I can not hold back the tears as I am really hurt this time. I know, maybe I can some how fill the emptiness with the tears, a temporary fix...
Feb 21st
My Donna will arrive today, actually tonight around mid night. I am not quite sure how to pick her up while the kids are asleep. Take them with me or get someone to come over at that ungodly hour. She would do it for me and i have done it for her many times, but that is the price of her fame. I am proud of her and all that she has done for us. I don't think anyone truly understands all that she has sacrificed to get to where she is... Ps. her birthday is tomorrow and I think she is 29 again, so that makes me only 17 this is our fuzzy math thanks George W.
Feb 22nd
Road Trip
If we only had a camera you would laugh at the things we end up doing. Usually when we road trip we stir up some kind of trouble. Actually I am the one who starts it and she usually keeps me from going too far. There are not many people I can trust my life to but donna is one of the few. I have actually seen her in action, what a site! If she ever got that mad at me I would run or shoot. Today is her Birthday and we are headed to Virginia for (i wish a vacation to some exotic place, but not) so she can talk about diversity. Then it will be a late night trip back home for chruch on Sunday, have not told her that one yet. Ps. I am feeling much better now than a few days ago as two good things happened yesterday: an old friend came back into my life last night & donna is here. They helped me refocus on life. so it is all good.
Give away
I have a tendency to give my things to others who are "down on their luck". I have given some of my clothes to the homeless people, umbrellas to people on the street in the rain, and even food to those who have not eaten in a while. And while I enjoy helping others, I felt like I needed to give more. Lately I have been taking things like bikes, kids toys, jackets, dishes, and stuff that I just don't think I need down to areas where I think they are most needed. And while these things seem small to most, nothing made me feel better than giving away my $15,000.00 motorcycle to my friend who has HIV. This is someone who has always given me and his friends all the help we ever needed for no charge. Someone who always has a kind word to say about you, I always seemed to need that. and Someone who just seemed to work work work to only get set back somehow. He pulled up to my house after riding the bike for a few hours last week and he had the most beautiful smile on his face. And while happiness can not be bought it can be achieved by giving. Well, he once again has a smile on his, something missing from his life since he found out he was positive.